Upswing

Despite weeks of self doubt and self loathing things are starting to look up. I'm terrified to feel hopeful or proud or excited because I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop.

I'm twitchy and uncomfortable with good news. I don't know how to take compliments. My right leg is constantly bobbing because I am filled with nervous energy but I am exhausted at the same time.

Do I just break out into the happy dance, consequences be damned?